PicKinG uP tHe piEcEs

 Things that I’d rather not discuss with the person concerned but writing about them makes me feel better. I’m gonna write and forget all about this now… and erase it in time. After all I’m just over reacting…funny.

1. Mr. B. denied his new relationship (friends lang kano hehehehe the nerve, whats the point? I dunno…I have more or less expected him at least to have learned something from the past)…wawa naman the gurlalo, byutipul pa naman, and hmnn… classy.

2. When told that I was at CT, he wanted to come over…with his new gurl (what for? I’m completely lost, seems Mr. B. doesn’t know the word “sensitivity”, or I guess he just doesn’t care and he just wanted to show off…again I dont know, it’s kinda hard to believe that the most concerned and sensitive person I used to know has turned into someone like that)

***there seemed to be a misunderstanding here, I realized that when I was checking my phone. One thing is absolute though, I would never want them to see me in such a pitiful state.

3. There’s no point complaining, because it’s not actually Mr. B’s obligation to tell me everything. It was JUST a promise, a promise perse, told many times, maybe just to pacify an agitated mind.

I’m just too glad to put this ugly chapter in my life to rest. I’m now ready to put everything behind and start picking up the pieces. To some extent I’ve been operating my life on an autopilot but I guess it’s time now to take the controls. Starting tonight, I’m gonna have a peaceful sleep, and I honestly hope they will have the same. I actually wanted to apologize for being such a nuisance, and I’d like to say that I don’t want people to feel obligated to apologize. Things happened, and they happened for a reason. And there’s no one here to blame but ME, and ME ALONE…because I allowed this person to hurt me this much. It’s really funny because what’s happening is actually normal, like I’ve said I was over reacting to matters which I shouldn’t  be thinking in the first place, the problem is with me I admit that now. Just like what a mutual friend told me just a while ago, “dumz, what do you expect? that’s just normal you know, sooner or later that’s bound to happen, and guys will always be guys, you should know that”. And what irks me is that other people in similar situation take them in stride, but why not me? After a couple of failed relationships, I should have learned my lessons then, I should have known better, grown mature and wiser. Such gullibility is unacceptable. Too bad my lesson learned took it’s sweet time to sink in, and it took the longest and possibly the most difficult  path. But it finally arrived, yeah! it’s there at last! this last person certainly inflicted the biggest and ugliest scar in my whole life…Whew! it took me a long time to realize that but now it actually felt like a heavy weight was lifted off my shoulders.

Good luck and have a happy life everyone! Ciao for now!